Be still and know that I AM GOD; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! – Psalms 46: 10
It was not too long ago that I used to swell up with pride when someone would take notice of my busyness. A simple sentence such as “Girl, you’re non-stop” elicited a sense of accomplishment or success within myself without fail. It’s true… I believed that being busy was synonymous with living fully. That if I was not busy then I was just not doing enough. I was not giving my all. I was wasting time. I was missing opportunities for success and mo’ money…
…But that’s what happens when one embraces societal opinions as truth.
My most darkest moments was always during the absence of busyness in my life. Moments of life transitions filled with only quietness and loneliness: Week long in-patient hospital stays; being unemployed while on a break from college; spending weekends locked in a bedroom in hibernation-mode (#introvertproblems). Moments filled with nothing but STILLNESS…
If only I could have seen the blessing of being still during those moments!
Instead, I let loneliness drown me. And within that sea of loneliness lived every ounce of insecurity, flaw, regret, mistake, failure, hurt, shame, and lack that I’ve every experienced. So, to keep afloat and stay alive and avoid succumbing to the dark sea of loneliness, I had to slip on those arm floaties of busyness…
However, the thing about arm floaties is that sooner or later (most of the time sooner) they deflate and become useless…no longer able to prevent the dangers of the dark, cold, and overwhelming sea of loneliness. No longer able to keep stillness at bay. Because eventually, we all have to be still. Eventually, we will all have our time of rest. Eventually we will come face to face with being with ourselves… with our thoughts, memories, experiences, ideas, emotions, bodies.
But what I found is that if we stop fighting the quiet moments, the moments in which we find ourselves alone, we will be able to float and swim without the temporary, air-filled distraction of busyness, which keeps us oblivious to our truth.
… I don’t remember the exact day when my arm floaties of busyness deflated and I was left to flail about until the state of being still became my ultimate place of peace. I wish I could remember the moment when I realized that to be still means to be grounded in the miracles of life throughout the Earth. If only I could recall the second in which I finally understood the blessing of being still… that to be still gives us the opportunity to gain awareness of the intentions, glory, and grace of God. That by being still can bring more meaning to life than being busy.
There is no greater source of strength and power for me in my life than going still, being quiet and recognizing what real power is.
I challenge you all to BE STILL. Take a moment in your day to just be with yourself in a quiet space. Just breathe in and out with your eyes closed and focus your mind on every miracle and blessing that you experienced throughout the day/week/month/year. Even on our worst days God has given us the gift of life, so there’s no excuse! I hope that during your state of stillness you are able to feel the peace that I’ve come to feel when I’m just…here.
P.S: Don’t forget to count your blessings!